I needed to be silent, to retreat into my inner-self, to conserve my energy.  My family is in the transitional stage.  There are small changes happening in our lives, but they are the heralds of the greater changes to come.  I believe that I am on the brink of a new healthier, happier, gentler phase of my life.  I opted for changing and yet, for few more moments, I needed to cling to the familiar while figuring out my own small rituals of accepting the conflicting emotions, letting go of the past and welcoming the long anticipated future.